caksur unmilitam yena tasmai sri gurave namah
"O Gurudeva, you are so merciful. I offer my humble pranama unto you and am praying from the core of my heart that, with the torchlight of divine knowledge, you open my eyes which have been blinded by the darkness of ignorance."
Please accept my apologies for strange typos; I got this from The Rays of the Harmonist, no. 9, Winter 2001, which you can download in its entirety at www.purebhakti.com by searching 'gadadhara':
"One day, after hearing Srimad-Bhägavatam,
Mahäprabhu was sitting on the sand here at Cataka-parvata,
which He considered to be Govardhana. He told
Gadädhara Pandita, ’Gadädhara, I want to give you my
most valuable property. Will you accept it?’ When
Gadädhara Pandita agreed, Mahäprabhu said, ’This is the
property of My heart.’ He began removing the sand and
said, ’My präna-dhana is here.’ In the mood of Srimati
Rädhikä, He exposed Gopinätha’s head and crown, and
others then began to help reveal His form. Mahäprabhu
then requested Sri Gadädhara Pandita, ’You should take
Him and serve Him throughout your life.’
"Gadädhara Pandita is always serving Krsna. In krsnalila,
Srimati Rädhikä always satisfies Krsna more than
Candrävali, Lalitä, Visäkha, and others.
Her whole mood is to satisfy
Krsna. In mahäprabhu-lila, because Krsna wants to taste
Himself, He takes Rädhikä’s mood, and She responds
accordingly: ’He wants that, so I should not disturb Him.
If I help Him in this, this will be my service.’ Do you
"When Mahäprabhu was calling, Krsna! Krsna! O
Pränanätha! Rädhikä was there, but as an obedient servant.
She was in a daksina (submissive) mood. The relationship
of däsa is always in a daksina mood. Sri
Gadädhara Pandita was even more daksina than Rukmini.
Rukmini sometimes had some mäna (transcendental loving
anger), but Sri Gadädhara Pandita was not like that.
If he had been in a vämya (left-wing or unsubmissive)
mood, it would have been unfavourable to the mood of
Krsna as Mahäprabhu. Gadädhara Pandita was always
thinking, ’I am His servant.’ If he had said, ’My dear
Krsna, my dear beloved, Mahäprabhu’s mood would have
"This was also true in Navadvipa. At that time Gauräìga
was also calling out, Krsna, Krsna! not, Rädhe, Rädhe!
But at that time He was untrained; He had not yet been
admitted into the school of Visäkhä, Sri Räya Rämänanda.
At that time also, Gadädhara Pandita always served as an
obedient servant, covering all his moods as Srimati
Rädhikä. And he is in the same mood in nitya Navadvipadh
äma. He is never nägari in mahäprabhu-lilä."
Sri Gadadhara Pandita ki jai!! May he rain his mercy on us all!